Having Yo' Shit Together

Y'know, I'd been having trouble like the best of us. 

I suffer from heartaches from seeing my friends unhappy, make mistakes; I rejoice when I see my friends succeed and enjoy the people and work they have; I suffer from my own insecurities, some of them quite terrible when it happens - I also find myself blessed with the people who love me and will hold me up when everything else (which also includes myself) is turbulent.

I realise truly that what we have isn't really ours to keep, but ours to give away. Time, words, warmth, the pain of having to even give the gift of absence - 

And I thank God that, it is you who are near me, regardless of whether you've done me wrong or done right by me. You are a gift, and I'm glad for your being here. Thank you. 

If you'd caused me pain/discomfort, the future me thanks you, while the present me ... Well, the future me thanks you. Cough.

All this will get better: the sh7t I spout, the fears I express sometimes... I'm continually re-learning the art of self-censorship and being real, it gets challenging when this is an area I'm not familiar in still, but it will get better. 

I hope that, in the event that you go through these uncomfortable patches in life and have fears and insecurities like the best of us, please remember that it's okay to be weak so long as you continue to grow. Not everybody has their sh7t together all the time. 

Hang in there, it will all get better. It usually takes 5-10 minutes for the worst of the wave to pass, so if you can last that wave, I think you will be fine. 

Take your time.

It only gets better from "here". I know, and you too will know... Because gold is purified through fire and muskles are made when under stress. 😁😁😁