2013.

This one year has been eventful. 

I never knew 2013 could be this awesome and so terrifying at the same time. This year I gained a darling love, someone I feel I could spend my entire life with, went back into employment and found out what I could do and what I could not for sheer sanity's sakes. There is so much, so very much to learn but I'm glad I saw some very crucial lessons in the months of 2013. 

I met several petty bitches inside and outside of work, made some real (and precious!) connections, significantly, found a real friend in a certain Ms Lim, got quickly introduced to my significant other's circles, and tried out for a placement I thought I could take on, one that I prayed into existence no less. That's how I knew again, that God exists and that God is good. 

 I had braved and gritted through a large part of 2013, and now that it is really coming to an end - I see how everyone is just trying to make things work. Some more gossipy, some less so; some more back-stabbing, some shy away from any of these. Ultimately though, these people, even these people that I so disliked - they're trying to make things work. 

Perhaps I'm naive, but I'm glad my man is more so than I am - he believes the best of other people, and believes that you can be the best version of your personal best, even if he doesn't show it in understandable ways at times. We are all learning in this path. 

My childhood friend - she had very recently become a mother. I am envious but at the same time scared as hell to be one myself, because - well, because 2013 has taken something out of me. I don't know if I can or should be responsible for another human being, one that relies on me utterly. I am so imperfect and seemingly unsuitable. 

I will recover, but 2013 sure has taken something out of me. I know however, that this is only 1 year out of many years in my life, I know I will fare way better than this year. I pray that only positive people will be near and with me. If they are near but aren't positive then dear Lord make them so positive the sun shines out of their arse. Amen.

So yes, 2013. Nice to have been acquainted. Moving along, onwards.